Trans men bragging about tricking gay men into having sex with them


t-girl – issue 286

FTM fooling with fags
Posing proves he’s a real fagHorny homos inspect every part of “Jesse” as he walks out of the steam room and through dimly lit halls, past open doors within which boys cock their asses in the air. He runs his hand across his chest hair, flexing his hormoneengorged biceps nonchalantly. He struts and lets his towel hang low to reveal his firm, furry butt cheeks. A muscle queen lumbers by and brushes his hand against Jesse’s white terry cloth, groping for dick. Jesse smiles. His strap-on feels like a semi-hard penis through the towel, and the temperature-sensitive silicone has retained the heat from the wet sauna. Everyone at the bathhouse thinks Jesse has a hard, hot cock under his towel. No one knows he has a vagina.

I met Jesse six years ago in university, when he was a tough-looking, androgynous woman in a baseball cap and baggie clothes. He was already doing two hours of weightlifting a day when he started receiving testosterone injections. Jesse’s voice deepened, his bodybuilding regime gave him a physique from Men’s Health and he got hairy enough to fool your average bear. He was the first female-to-male trans guy who told me he went to gay bathhouses for man-on-man sex.

“I ain’t no bottom! Maybe ’cause I don’t got a prostate!” Jesse laughs. “But it’s too hard for me to top without getting discovered.” He goes to the spa to have his pecs, abs, traps, triceps and biceps worshipped.

His chest carpet covers the scars from his double mastectomy. If he accessorizes with a leather harness that criss-crosses his pecs, he passes seamlessly. He brags, “I fool everyone, and I confess it makes me feel like a man.”

Jesse laughs and agrees with me when I suggest that tricking gays is his biggest sexual thrill.

“Regular” sex with a detachable cock!

“Bobby” is a self-confessed “FTM bathhouse Betty” with a lean, tight body. A couple of months ago, he bought a prosthetic cock made to match his skin tone by an Australian company that creates state-of-the-art body parts for people who’ve been injured in accidents. It’s glued to the front of his groin with medical adhesive. Pubic hair hides the top edges of his masterfully crafted high-tech dong. It has a firm shell filled with silicone gel, the same material in breast implants, making it realistic to touch. “It even has little veins on it,” he says proudly. Bobby lathers up in the group showers so guys can see it. “Even soap won’t dissolve the glue,” he says. If someone gets within reaching distance of his well-proportioned man-made manhood, he saunters to a urinal and pretends to take a “nice long slosh.”

But Bobby doesn’t walk the house of many doors to be a display model for the newest bod-mod technology. After his testosterone shot, he’s raving horny. “I tell guys I’m mostly into sucking cock.” Then his knees hit the floor. If his partner bends over, Bobby fucks him. Bobby says they don’t realize they’re being penetrated by imported Aussie silicone. Condoms and lube only add to the illusion.

“There’s rare fags who want to suck and fuck with trans guys, but they want an unusual experience – a boy with a pussy.” Bobby’s not into his vagina and doesn’t want men who like him for that. But unlike Jesse, passing for male isn’t enough of a sexual thrill for Bobby. He says, “I’m a man, and I had to find a way of fucking other men that feels regular.”

Shameful acts?

“I stopped going to bathhouses two years ago,” claims “Hank,” a politically-minded FTM acquaintance of mine who also likes men. With his short beard and receding hairline, Hank could fool fags, but he doesn’t want to fool himself. “I used to have sex with guys without telling them,” he says, but he started wondering if that meant he was ashamed to be trans.

“I would go to the bathhouse if I could be open about myself, do everything I wanted with a guy and be accepted,” he says. I mention Bobby’s bathhouse bangs, and I ask Hank if he longs to have sex with someone who isn’t looking for a kinky encounter with a trans person. He nods and says, “Yes, I just don’t want to have to lie about myself to get it.” Hank tells me there are personal ads for gay men seeking trans guys on the net. (He doubts it comes close to the amount of interest straight men have towards t-girls.) He’s got an ad on a website, and he’s hopeful.

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from New Statesman: When I was raped, it was female-only spaces that helped me recover


When I was raped, it was female-only spaces that helped me recover

While studying at Oxford University, I woke up to find myself being sexually assaulted. That’s why I want an honest and open debate about women’s services, without being accused of rhetorical “violence”.

Oxford University, where the author was attacked. Photo: Oli Scarff/Getty Images
Oxford University, where the author was attacked. Photo: Oli Scarff/Getty Images

When I was in the first year of my doctorate, I was living in London but regularly commuting to Oxford for supervisions and research. On the day of the Madrid train bombings, in March 2004, I was there for an evening class. It was my birthday, but, having no heart for a celebration, I and two friends popped to the Randolph Hotel for a quiet drink. One friend offered me floor space for the night, and after a couple of hours in the bar, we called a taxi. On my way to the door, a hand reached out, encircling my wrist.

“Are you leaving?” demanded a man on the next sofa. He was stocky, in his mid 60s. Surrounding him were five or six preppy young men, chattering excitedly in American accents. “Are you leaving?” he repeated. “I was going to buy you a drink.” Hesitating, I sat down on the arm of the couch.

“Are you coming?” my friend demanded; exasperated, amused.

“I’ll just stay for one more drink. Let’s ask the cab to come back in fifteen minutes.”

I don’t remember what we talked about. After a lengthy crash diet, I was thinner than usual, and got drunk quickly. When the taxi reappeared, he sent it away, filling the empty space on the table before me with a glass of rich, maroon wine. My friend – tired, losing patience, needing to finish an essay – left with assurances that I’d be fine, I’d be back soon, I’d let myself into her flat, I’d see her tomorrow.

Early the next morning, I swam up into consciousness with effort. I was naked, face down in a pillow, and gradually became aware of the fact that, deep inside my own body, somebody’s fingers were moving about. I racked my brain. Who was this? An American voice I didn’t recognise whispered, “We didn’t have sex.” With a start, I span over, twisting myself off his hand. I caught a glimpse of a bald, boxy head, and passed out.

When I next awoke, I was alone. The room – a small suite – looked as if it had been taken apart in a fight. Moving slowly, deliberately, I dressed myself, lifting a fallen armchair to retrieve my handbag, and made my way down the stairs, past the concierge, and out onto the street. I knew we had had sex.

On Oxford’s silvery pavements under the steel winter sky, I felt I was walking through the barrel of a gun. At the other end, my friend answered the door of her flat with a concerned look. “I don’t know what happened,” I mumbled. “I think I had sex with a man older than my father. I feel awful.”

She ushered me into her bedroom where I slept, fully clothed, until she gently shook me awake. “I think you should go to the doctor,” she said quietly. “What happened to you last night? Did he rape you?”

I started crying. “I don’t know what happened. I don’t remember anything.”

She led me into her kitchen, where her flatmate was sitting, smoking. Manicured, cat-like; he ran his eyes over me. “You’re a mess,” he enunciated. “This was going to happen to you sooner or later. Pull yourself together. This is your fault.”

I cried silently through the appointment with the college’s doctor. He said, he was sorry, but, you see, he couldn’t examine me as there wasn’t a female nurse in the building, and without an examination, he said, there wasn’t really any point in going to the police or doing a blood test, but here’s a pill to stop you getting Aids and pregnant, but don’t drink on them, ha ha!, and oh look, I’ve just noticed it was your birthday yesterday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I had never before felt my body, so directly, to be the recipient of male violence; a battlefield for a struggle between autonomy and patriarchal oppression. And I had never before felt so directly betrayed by male authority figures charged with my care, and male friends. I had also never before felt the worth of, the visceral need for, female company: for women whose bodies had, like mine, made them vulnerable to particular types of male encroachment, confinement and intimidation, from the moment of birth onwards. A female therapist, female friends, feminism: these things made all the difference.

My story was not unique. Which ones are? An anonymous female student wrote a harrowing account of being raped while unconscious as a second-year undergraduate at Oxford, followed by dismissal (rape is “just something that happens”) and woefully wrongful advice from the police. A recent survey by the NUS showed by 37 per cent of female students, and 12 per cent of male, claim to have faced some form of sexual harassment while at university. The Oxford University Student Union (OUSU) launched a campaign in 2013, “It Happens Here”, to raise awareness of sexual abuse and violence in Oxford, through education and advocacy: “encourag[ing] structures to be implemented that support survivors of abuse and violence”. A key component of that campaign is to assist facilities that exist for the support of such survivors: helplines, groups, therapy.

A question that troubles me is this: should female-only rape support groups be inclusive of trans (male-to-female) women? Is it relevant whether such individuals have undergone reassignment surgery, whether they retain intact male genitalia, whether they live part-time as women and part-time as men, or whether they present full-time as men but identify as women? If a line is to be drawn, where? It is undeniable that trans people have great need for such services: the US transgender support and campaign organisation FORGE cites claims that over 50 per cent of trans people face sexual violence. What proportion of sexual violence towards trans people is motivated by misogyny and what proportion by transphobia? Would trans people be potentially better served by exclusively trans support groups that tackle both systems of hate, or by groups that exclusively deal with misogyny? (As in many issues, the experience and oppression of women and trans women does intersect to a certain degree, but differs too.) What effect would the inclusion of trans women in support groups have on female clients? The 2010 Equality Act protects transgender people from discrimination or exclusion from single-sex facilities, but contains one exception: in a group counselling session provided for female victims of sexual assault, exclusion of a “male-to-female trans person” is lawful if that person’s presence would make it unlikely for other clients to continue attending the session. There are calls from trans activists for this exception to be revoked.

It was my experience that led me to sign the open letter published by theObserver on 14 February, which pointed to “a worrying pattern of intimidation and silencing of individuals whose views are deemed ‘transphobic’ or ‘whorephobic’”. It called on universities to “resist this kind of bullying”, and “affirm their support for the basic principles of democratic political exchange”. I was one of more than 130 signatories.

I signed the letter, partly because, as an academic, I am committed to what John Henry Newman considered the defining feature of “the idea of a university”: a broad, liberal education that teaches students “to think and to reason and to compare and to discriminate and to analyse” a broad range of arguments. “Not to know the relative disposition of things,” wrote Newman, “is the state of slaves or children”. This type of education necessarily involves introducing students to arguments and writers that they might find unsatisfactory, illogical, plain wrong, and even offensive or upsetting; and it will provide them with the skills to rebut such arguments and, in doing so, forge their own thought.

Speakers who directly incite to violence, or utter libellous claims, do not fall within this remit, because the threat they pose outweighs the benefits of diverse opinion. I understand very well the concern that any argument that, however tangentially, contributes to a culture of inequality or discrimination, may ultimately contribute to the physical violence that is the origin and conclusion of such inequality. I understand this because I’m a woman, and every catcall, every dismissive remark or treatment from a man, is part of a culture of misogyny that begins and ends with rape and violence against women and girls. But I also recognise the crucial differences between actual and metaphorical violence; and the impossibility and subjectivity of prosecuting or censoring any remark potentially construed as offensive.

Personally, I don’t pretend to know the answer to the problem I outlined above, about access to women-only spaces. I know how therapeutically constructive I found the company of women, who had experienced, from birth, the same oppressive, stunting weight with which patriarchal gender expectations and direct male violence stifle the flourishing of little girls and women. Incidentally, I felt the same stunting weight, the same need for female company, in pregnancy and motherhood: the uninvited gropes from men (“awright preggers?”), the unequal legislation that sent my male partner to work while keeping me alone at home, on the basis of a mysterious quality called “maternal instinct” that I apparently had and he apparently lacked. I was lucky enough to not be subject to the 30 per cent of domestic violence that begins during a woman’s pregnancy, and affects between 4 and 9 per cent of pregnant women. Much of women’s oppression is directly related to various elements of the female body – our vaginas, breasts, reproductive systems, lesser physical strength, the way in which our body fat is proportioned and distributed – some of which may also be possessed by trans women, some which are exclusive to women. It is not essentialist to point out this relationship between biology and oppression, nor to claim its importance.

As I said, I don’t know the answer. It is a case of competing rights and claims, and a solution will only be found by listening to, and negotiating between, representatives from all sides: the full diversity of opinions of female and trans survivors of sexual assault, therapists and counsellors, trans support groups, representatives of women’s charities and campaigns. Many trans people want this too: Professor Stephen Whittle of Press For Change writes of the need for “a trans community and movement based upon the principles of tolerance”.

I signed the Observer letter because I believe that it is not “transphobic” to assert the need for such a debate, nor to defend the validity of arguments on both sides. My insistence that such a debate exists is not born of hatred or “phobia” for anybody. I do not accept the logic of certain trans activists that there is no debate – the argument made by the influential Liberal Democrat, and member of the Lib Dem LGBT+ equalities group Sarah Brown, who argues that trans women have more right to define the category “woman” than “cis women”, because women who are born women are necessarily “in a position of privilege over trans women”. It is not privilege to be born with a body that is, from the moment of birth, vulnerable to the constriction, damage and violence that men enact upon women, either through gender norms (the praise given to little girls for being quiet, still, delicate, dainty poppets) or through physical assault. The 51 per cent of the global population who are born with such a body are not necessarily more privileged than the estimated 0.01 per cent of the population who are transgender.

I am concerned that a number of politicians, particularly among the liberal left, who have been elected or proposed to represent a diversity of opinions within a certain demographic, are failing to acknowledge the validity of views held by a significant proportion of that community. Views such as mine, which display no hatred or phobia whatsoever; just a recognition of the existence of competing claims, and the need for considered debate. This is a worrying adjunct to the type of silencing of debate within universities that the Observerletter described. Accusations of “transphobia”, extremism and hate speech are levelled at those who express the type of scepticism that I have articulated in this article.

Surely the Green Party’s sole equalities spokesperson should faithfully represent the views of all demographics who experience inequality, including women who have valid concerns about provision of rape support? The role’s current occupant, Benali Hamdache, openly dismisses women who hold views like my own with the misogynistic slur “TERF” (trans-exclusionary radical feminist), a term which is only ever used pejoratively. The Green Party’s candidate for Bexleyheath and Crayford, Stella Gardiner, tweets that women who share my views are “extremists and enemies of all women!” On 15 February, Sarah Brown sent an hours-long barrage of tweets to Professor Mary Beard, berating her for signing the same Observer letter that I did. Six student politicians at Oxford University – including four who are directly responsible for “women’s campaigns” in the university – published an open letter in response, accusing me and the three other Oxford signatories of sending “a clear message to trans students and students who are in the sex industry that they are unwelcome at Oxford University”, questioning our ability to provide adequate pastoral care to vulnerable students and calling for an apology.

Although these are relatively minor politicians, they are in positions in which they represent the views of a diversity of communities. Many transgender people dissent from transgender politics’ prevailing orthodoxy that there are no differences between trans women and “cis women” (other than the latter demographic’s apparently greater privilege): they are not being represented by the LGBT+ spokespeople above. Many lesbians are unhappy about some trans activists’ claims that not wanting to have sex with pre-operative trans women is blatant “transphobia”: they too are losing a political voice. Many women – like myself – for whom the preservation of all-female spaces has an importance, for whom there is a debate about who such spaces are for, are dismissed as transphobic and not represented by politicians, like Benali Hamdache, who purport to speak in our name.

What is happening in universities is microcosmic of the larger political arena, in terms of attitudes towards sex and gender. The voices of oppressed groups are being drowned out by a single orthodoxy, with a false rhetoric of metaphorical violence, extremism, hatred and “phobia” hurled at such voices in order to discredit them. In many cases, the people who do this have the best of intentions: to protect a group that undoubtedly faces appalling discrimination and abuse. But it concerns me greatly the extent to which they, these voices of the liberal left, consider women’s serious, reasonable, moderate concerns to be utterly disposable.

Dr Rachel Hewitt is the Weinrebe Fellow at Wolfson College, Oxford

Originally posted on BUREAUCROMANCY “Pulling for TMI but the point remains”

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Pulling for TMI but the point remains

I’m sorry, I pulled the last post, I know some people read it. This is a horror which is very personal but I didn’t have the right to tell it. I don’t have the right to tell everything which belongs to me, and I didn’t have the right to tell that.

Sometimes I forget where my rights are and where other people’s stories overlap. It’s usually when I’m really angry. I was and remain furiously angry that “misgendering”, deadnaming etc are called violent crimes, because I know about violent crime. I also want to know where cis privilege was on the night I talked about. I do not think it was there.

What I’m trying to say is that the people equating the two things are wrong and horribly wrong and if they knew how wrong they were, I don’t think they would stop, because they are narcissists. I wanted, in a moment of anger, to make them see the two things in contrast. They’ll look away, of course, and then I am telling a story I do not own to innocent people. That’s not correct so I pulled the post.

I know some diabolical stories, but that belongs to my own personal hell. I think we all carry a hell around with us. That forms part of the inner circle of mine.

It is actually painful to see and hear shit like “You have literal blood on your hands” for being a TERFy SWERFy whatever when there was real blood on hands. Not literal. Not a device. Real.

And sometimes I cry or get angry when I read it or see people holding knives in photos saying “send me a TERF” because you are children playing with fireworks. You are children playing with guns. You are children and you don’t know what you are talking about.

There is a clear and horrible line I thought I would never have to cross. A man forced me to cross it (not one of the most evilest persons ever known, the deadly middle-aged radical feminist) and I sat dressed in my best clothes in the court hearing about the terrible death of someone I loved. In detail. And I know where she was when she died. I sat there before.

There ain’t no shelter here. The front line is everywhere.

When feeling better leads to an identity crisis

From the blog:


When feeling better leads to an identity crisis

A female (AFAB, assigned female at birth) who calls herself “genderqueer” and wishes to take testosterone to become more androgynous has started taking wellbutrin (an antidepressant), and her feelings of gender dysphoria have significantly lessened. She posts to r/asktransgender:

Ok, so I’m AFAB genderqueer/genderfluid and I’ve been experiencing an insane amount of dysphoria on and off (corresponding with fluctuations in masculinity/femininity) since about June. I realized I was genderqueer about 3 years ago, but decided not to anything about it until this summer because, as I said, my dysphoria got intense. I came to the conclusion that I needed a low dose of T to be more androgynous and more able to pass in boymode… and after much angst came out to my mother and brother and asked my PCP for T. She said she’ll look into it (she’s never had a trans patient before) and possibly start me on it in January.

In the meantime, I’ve been struggling with depression on and off my whole life, and it’s been made unbearable by the dysphoria, so I finally accepted her recommendation for an antidepressant. She put me on Wellbutrin (150mg 2x/day) 5 days ago, and I’m already feeling WAY better in terms of my mood, but I also haven’t experienced any dysphoria at all. I tried boymoding once a few days ago, and it felt good, but still no dysphoria. Now I’m really worried that all this gender stuff is just a side effect of my depression, and it’s not real. I mean, not having dysphoria is good, and I know that dysphoria isn’t necessary to be genderqueer, and I still want to boymode and aim for a more androgynous presentation, but I just don’t feel like shit about my body anymore. I never thought that feelingbetter would make me have an identity crisis. Help?

TL;DR: I’m genderqueer and depressed, went on an antidepressant that works too well and got rid of my dysphoria. Now I’m having an identity crisis. Help?

Note the casual attitude towards taking testosterone – a drug that can have drastic unwanted consequences for females, but that in many transgender groups online is seen merely as something you can take to help you get a certain “look”.

Note also that the poster describes the lessening of trans feelings as an “identity crisis”. Shouldn’t feeling better be a good thing? What do the posters in r/asktransgender have to say? Interestingly, there are a few that have similar experiences:


Interestingly though, many posters stress how this relief of negative feelings isn’t really a solution.

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reblogged from FireWomon “Et tu, Owen Jones?”

Et tu, Owen Jones?

Early last summer, following the Dyke March debacle, Benjamin Cohen, publisher and CEO of Pink News, retweeted a trans male, Sarah Brown, telling me to suck his balls:

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Sarah Brown is a man who identifies as a woman. He has, according to him, had surgery to remove his external male genitalia. Whether his balls are pickled or not, I don’t know, and nor do I want to. The point is that it’s rather rude to tell a woman to suck your balls. (For the avoidance of doubt, I did not write the post to which he linked, nor have I ever written anything for that site. If I had, I’d own up to it. It’s a good site.)

I asked Cohen whether I was to take his retweet as an endorsement:

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I didn’t get any further response from Cohen. Now, if I were him, and I had NOT meant the retweet to be an endorsement, I’d have made my position clear immediately. So I conclude that Cohen, seeing the Tweet from Brown, thought something along the lines of ‘Tee-hee, isn’t that hilarious,’ and hit the ‘retweet’ button.

Cohen has in excess of 17,000 followers on Twitter, and his retweet caused several of them – obviously sharing his merriment – to tweet Rude Things at me. I wish I could say I didn’t give a shit – most of the time, I don’t – but bullying a woman who’s just been ordered to suck a man’s balls is a bit beyond the pale.

In his Twitter profile, Cohen gives his location as ‘London & New York’ and is apparently bankrolled by his dad. In other words, he’s not short of a few bob. Sarah Brown is Cambridge-educated, has been a local authority councillor (albeit for the LibDems), and, I am told, is the owner of a fucking big yacht. In short, these are two privileged males we are talking about here.

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Link between gender dysphoria and dissociation found

Link between gender dysphoria and dissociation found

Here is an interesting study I just ran across from Collizi, Costa, and Toldarello, entitled “Dissociative symptoms in individuals with gender dysphoria: Is the elevated prevalence real?”, abstract pasted below: 996 more words

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What I believe about sex and gender: part 1

More radical with age


1. Humans, like the vast majority of species, reproduce sexually. This means that the reproduction of our species is achieved through the fusion of a female gamete with a male gamete to produce a new organism. In normal cases, each organism produced will be unambiguously either female or male, and will produce the appropriate gametes for the purposes of sexual reproduction.

2. The categories of female and male are thus general biological categories that apply to all species that reproduce sexually. Humans are not special in this regard. While the language we use to describe these biological facts, and the values we attach to these facts, will be shaped by culture, the facts themselves exist independently of culture or our social understandings of them. Whether or not we have the language with which to describe it, females will continue to produce large, non-motile gametes (ova), and males will continue to produce…

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Replicating patterns of disbelief

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When I think of being young I think of being scared. I was scared all the time. I remember lying in bed, listening out for sounds, or watching for faces to change and if one face in particular changed, it wouldn’t change back, not soon enough.

I used to blame my brother. I thought that if he didn’t get hit, I wouldn’t get hit. I thought he caused it all. Then I blamed my mother. I thought that if only she’d let my brother get hit enough for all the hitting to be “done,” it would end and none of it would spill over onto me.

I never blamed the person who did the hitting, obviously. You just don’t. When it comes to blame it has to be women and children first.

When I had a breakdown in my teens I tried to speak about what was wrong. Unfortunately, people…

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From “Not Sure” To Sneaking Hormones Behind Parents’ Backs in a Week

Transgender Reality

A 17 year old posts to r/asktransgender to ask how he can tell for sure whether he’s transgender or not.

I have no idea where I stand on the whole “gender spectrum” if you can call it that. I know that the idea of transitioning is tied deeply to my sexuality, but I have no idea if it’s a fetish or something more. I tend to have no issue with the fact that I am male; in fact I would go so far as to say I enjoy being male, but whenever I contemplate sex or intimate relationships, I am either effeminate or female in my fantasies.

A teenage male having some confusing sexual fantasies, but having no issues with being male.

When I first found out about the term transgender around the age of 12 or 13, I did extensive research and found out that people who…

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